The Girl

So I finally did it. I talked to the new girl who is now the current girl I'm interested in pursuing.  This was last year January 7th.

I asked God what He wanted me to know about the new girl.

He sent me to Mark 14:3

Yea....that's my prayer life.

So what does Mark 14:3 say?

Wanna hear it? Here it goes.....

While He was in Bethany [as a guest] at the home of [a]Simon the leper, and reclining at the table, a [b]woman came with an alabaster vial of very costly and precious perfume of pure [c]nard; and she broke the vial and poured the perfume over His head. 4 But there were [d]some who were indignantly remarking to one another, “Why has this perfume been wasted? 5 For this perfume might have been sold for more than three hundred denarii [a laborer’s wages for almost a year], and the money given to the poor.” And they scolded her. 6 But Jesus said, “Let her alone; why are you bothering her and causing trouble? She has done a good and beautiful thing to Me. 7 For you always have the poor with you, and whenever you wish you can do something good to them; but you will not always have Me. 8 She has done what she could; she has anointed My body beforehand for the burial. 9 I assure you and most solemnly say to you, wherever the good news [regarding salvation] is proclaimed throughout the world, what she has done will be told in memory of her.”


This is the story of the woman with the alabaster box.

So let me take you through my thought process.

So I was praying for my friend and eventually, as is the case any time I'm serious about letting God use me in prayer, I started praying for my wife. So I was praying for her and then I was like "And what about this new girl? What's she here for? What am I supposed to do with her? She's not my wife right?"

Eventually the prayer ends and I've crawled into bed (legit crawled...you kneel for 25 minutes and see what happens! Not cute at all!)

I'm in bed and God's like "about her, Mark 14:3."

So I looked and this was my initial interpretation.

She's here to do something awesome for me. She's here to offer me something very pricey and not in a materialistic way but in an emotional way. She's not permanent. God doesn't intend her to be the "if not my love, this girl will do" girl. She's got a specific purpose.

When I think more about it now I see that Jesus says she anointed his body before burial. I'm clearly not being buried but I think the burial concept represents a drastic change that will occur in my life. She's here to give me something I'm going to need for the next step in my life. It'll be significant, it'll be a part of my testimony. I have no idea what it is but its something.

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Now I know what I was supposed to understand. 

She did give me something pricey...she chose me. That's what she told when I was ending things the first time. She said "I chose you" and now that I look back on that, many months removed from my ex and my obligation to God, and I can see this precious gift for all that it is.

And I'm pursuing it. One week ago I had dinner with her, explained what happened and how I was in conflict with my religious obligations, and though apprehensive she told me "I liked you, I still like you."

She's also talking to someone right now.

Maybe we will be friends for a while. That's cool. Its not like I've never waited before. (ha!) And honestly, I'm not interested in pursuing someone else. I want to date her. I want to see what's up with her. I want to know if that fact that she's constantly on my mind will become more.

Maybe we'll start dating again but I know one thing.....if I start dating her again, its with intent to marry.

So yea, I do seriously think she could be the one. 

For years I prayed for my wife and for my ex separately. 

I don't know where this is headed but it could be headed somewhere serious pretty fast. 

Now its something different and the same. She very well may be permanent. God very well may have a very specific purpose for her and it could be way bigger than I could even see back then, back when my obligations had me torn. 

She could be a drastic change in my life. She could give me something I'm going to need for the next step in my life. It'll be significant, it'll be part of my testimony. 

She could make me a wife.