What for Who?

Cheney posed this thought....

Would you give up what you love for who you love...?

I thought it was interesting....profound even.

Would I give up what I love, be that a thing or a job or a position, for the person I love? You know what? I've never put myself in a situation where I've had to make such a decision. Not a real one. I mean yea superficially I've let people believe I'd choose them but I think the reason I'm not in this position is because I know.

I know what I'd never give up what I love for who I love. I just wouldn't.

That reality about myself, really owning that is hard. Its hard for me to say but I think owning your truth is important. Its quite simply what's true for me. I've never loved any human more than I've loved this journey, this path. My life means so much to me...especially now. My decisions have to feed my own soul.

My truth is, yes I love you but.

The but is always there.
Unless, it'll spare your actual life, I'm will to walk away from you for the pursuit of what I love.

I don't think there will be a person I love enough to walk away for and a person who truly loves me wouldn't ask for so much.

I'm thankful I haven't been forced to choose. I thankful the people in my life haven't asked this much of me. Maybe its because they know too. They've seen me, watched me, and loved me all this time. They know that the thing I love, more than anything else, is some combination of school/academia. I wouldn't be who I am without it. I'm not even sure you'd like me if it wasn't for the way that school has shaped me.

I think the question...to ask someone to give up what they love for you is unfair. Why would you ask so much of another? Why place so much responsibility for their happiness and wellbeing on your own shoulders? I wouldn't want to be the only thing someone had left. I don't want that kind of responsibility. I also think its an ultimatum of sorts. Its a "prove you love me" moment and I don't think those are necessary. I can love you and something else. I'm much more complex than being narrowly defined or focused in one way.

But if you must make me choose.....

I wouldn't give anything for my journey.

I love you, but not more than I love me.