Eat or Don't

Your pictures are tucked away
Replaced with future
Babies and toddlers
Current fixtures

You're still the one I want
The one I reference for how it should be done
How you should treat the one you love
Setting "An impossible standard" people say
but I don't see it

You're still the one I want
and still the one I don't seek you

There's something so invigorating about this
this restraint
something so humbling about going to God instead of dialing your number
There's so much in the silence
In the space on the white of the page
The so much space for feelings I want to feel
peace mainly

I love you

However
I can't have you in the most meaningful of ways
and thus I abstain

Taste and see that the Lord is Good
I tasted and saw that you were too
and I choose
starvation and abundance
because no feast of you was offered
yet the Lord gave me a seat at His table