IDK

I still trying to figure out what I think about all of this....what I feel about all of this.

At first I felt guilty.

I felt my behavior wasn't befitting for someone who believes what I believes and lives the way I live.

Then I asked someone I trust, someone who has walked with me and been by my side always.

She said "You haven't done anything wrong. You haven't violated your own standards."

She said "Let someone treat you like you deserve to be treated. Let someone show you some reciprocity."

Its all God and if He intends it, it'll be added or it won't.

So that's that.

I'm going out on a date tomorrow.

She's sweet and thoughtful.
She's Christian.
She's a good conversationalist.
She's out.
And she wants to go out with me.

So I'm going.