Wasting Time

I loved a girl once.
Like really loved her.
If you've read my writing on here, you know.
I was poetry writing, gift sending, hundreds of miles driving, vacation planning, up all night with her texting in love.
Honestly I still am....the in love part.

BUT.....

I also want to be a spectacular physician. So unless the Lord drops someone new in my life, I still in love with that girl....a girl I don't really talk to at all anymore(that's a whole nother convo though!).

Why? Why am I waiting on the Lord instead of actively seeking someone?

Well that's the funny part.

My classmates keep asking me how I have so much free time to be in clinic. How I've done so many procedures and regularly scrub in...even ahead of upper years depending on the situation. Upper years have asked too! I'm in clinic about 10 hours a week between Sports Med and OB. This Thursday alone I'm in clinic for 11 hours plus all day Sunday. I am also a consummate lecture goer. And you know how I manage to do that?

I don't date. 

I know its sounds over simplified but its the honest truth. Think about it.
What is dating?
Dating is spending time with someone doing activities you might not otherwise do to be around them.
Dating is, at its core, wasting time. 

I don't waste time doing anything that won't help me be a better physician. I know I know....I watch a ton of soccer BUT that's also for work because I watch for pleasure and for sports med AND I do most of that on the treadmill.

I keep it simple. I go to soccer games (during soccer season) and church (when it fits in my schedule),  hiking (when weather permits), watch my 1 TV show, read, workout, and cook. Oh and everything is test schedule dependent.

If I was to date someone, they'd have to do those activities with me because I don't do much else AND that would mean I wasn't wasting time to be around them.

I don't think many people have mastered the art of "spending productive time with a person they like" and I'm not saying I have but I do know I'm not going to spend a whole day doing something I wouldn't have done just to be around you. That's a smooth hell no. I turn down friends for lunch if it doesn't fit in my pre-determined schedule. I'm ruthless about my time.

Why? Glad you asked....

This is my only time to become solid didactically and in practice. I found out in a meeting yesterday that the 3rd years notes don't even go in the pt charts IF they even write one. When I write notes in clinic, they go in the chart. Period. <--That's experience I'm getting that upper levels don't because I sought out extracurricular clinical experiences.  We also spend time doing a differential from history only and then from our own exam before our attending even goes in to exam the pt. We do that with every pt.  I have to present my pts just like everyone else. That's something that isn't happening everywhere and its invaluable.

This time is what will mold me into the kind of physician I end up being so unless the Lord sees fit to drop someone in my life who wants to watch me cook and go to soccer games, I'll continue to avoid wasting time....aka dating.

P.S. Giving up TV also does wonders for finding time to study. It makes my one show a week that much sweeter!