Hiking and Bachata

So many things. So I went hiking with the math teacher. We talked, we laughed. I said I was going to Bachata lessons the next day and she decided to come as well. The next day we danced for an hour and I’d be remissed if I didn’t mention that there was a moment where a kiss was surely a possibility. Now that’s where it gets interesting.

So I told my friends about this and let’s just say the friend crew wasn’t too happy. I love Wodes because she’s so damn protective of me. I think watching me work through things with my ex and getting over her plus the loss of one of my major mentors has made her weary of anything she thinks might wound me deeply. She says she just doesn’t have a good feeling about this situation. She thinks me and the math teacher have too much chemistry to be doing things alone. She knows I’m not going to let myself go but so far but she also doesn’t have a good grasp on what the math teacher may or may not do.
My other friend is like you’re always in control of what you do so you’re not gonna do something you don’t want to do or let something happen that you don’t want to happen so she thinks it’s ok but she also says y’all never were friends so this process is a little weird. She said it was especially weird because both the math teacher and myself know that I want to date her and that I want her current gf to go away so I can be her gf.


The boys on the other hand are like everything isn’t black and white and you’ve always stayed in the black and white. Live in the gray a little.

I tend to side more with I’m not gonna do anything I’ll regret. I also tend to be the type that will say “let me show you why I’m better than what you’ve got.” We shall see. I spent a ton of time with her this past weekend and that was odd. We aren’t usually together.

I’m not torn about what to do as much as I’m annoyed still that she has a gf. I’m single so I can hang with whoever I want in whatever way. As I’m approaching my decade of celibacy, I’m struck by the fact that I thought I was demisexual may have just been me suppressing that drive so thoroughly that it was a none issue.  I thought I must need a deep emotional attachment to feel that for someone but maybe it was just a non starter because it was a flat no for me.

Let’s just say I’ve had more than one thought of a particular nature about this girl.