The Sweeter It Is

No this isn't about the math teacher.

This is about my mentor.

The one who use to be so important to me had stricken herself from the roster of my heart. The one I chose back continues to show me why that was probably the best decision I made this academic year.

My ex-mentor promised to do something for me for my academic future months ago. Then this week. Then she backed out the day before I needed it.

I called the one I chose and she turned it around in less than 24 hours.


Also I had given her some space because she was overwhelmed and I promise you, she was singing my name when I walked in her office. We had dinner, we read some studies, we edited some reports, she drove me to my car, and I went home.

Let me tell you something.
You cannot know what you have unless you've had worse.
I've had worse.
I've had being blindsided by mood swings.
I've been stranded.
I've been heartbroken.

And now I know what its like to turn the corner and have someone be thrilled to see me.
To have someone have my back for real.
To have someone who is both my friend and my mentor.
To get picked up, dusted off, fed, and loved.

I am so unreservedly grateful for B in my life.
And even when we get on each others' nerves, which being around someone a lot will do to the most understanding of people, we come back to "Where is she?" sooner rather than later.

I love her.
I'm so glad I said yes when my heart was broken because she's the gold that put it back together.