High and rare form!
Imposter Syndrome is nothing to play with.
Imposter Syndrome is not a game. It is my lived reality.
Yesterday I was told by a medical school that my application decision is on hold.
That's failure. <---That's what this feels like.
I realize that this is because I have this thing...this thing that tells me that perfection is the standard and anything that isn't that is a reflection on me. Anything that isn't perfection is more evidence that I am not good enough.
Everyone said last year it was my score. Now my score is great. And still this result. <----My mind says "See it wasn't the score. It was you. You're the problem. You're not good enough."
I live with a perpetual soundtrack that tells me "You're not good enough" and I work really hard to keep that volume on low but sometimes...
Times like yesterday...
Its turned all the way up.
Its a battle, and sometimes, it still wins.
::Calls Mentor::
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