The Fallout

So....this is the fallout.

She claimed she didn't want to go with me to UNC but didn't know how to straight up tell me she didn't want to go. (She also told me she wouldn't personally go home for a dinner and turn around and come right back. I realize the dedication I have to IME is intense but the experiences I've had with my mentors have been life changing and life affirming. Not many people are fortunate enough to have mentors as involved as mine are!)  She told her boyfriend she didn't want to go and he apparently was like "then don't go."

Somewhere between what she told me and what our mutual friend told me is the truth.

I'll tell you what I think.

I honestly think he has a problem with me because I treat his girlfriend better than he does hands down. I think that makes him nervous regardless of the fact that she ain't my type and I'm not hers.

I also think she won't let him dictate who to be friends with. <--Was one of the stipulations I had going forward. I told her straight up, if I can only be your friend inside the med school buildings, you can keep it. She told me he doesn't and can't.  She also said that if he had issues with gay people she wouldn't be able to date him. Apparently he has lesbian friends but I had to point out that him having them and his girlfriend having them aren't the same.

So, she doesn't know it but this is a trial run. It'll take me a little while to trust her again and to get back to where we were.

Sometimes I think life would be so much easier with a partner, not just because of all the wonderful things about having one but also because then everyone would know I'm taken and committed.

Its hard for folks to believe I'm committed to my celibacy cause they don't understand it.

I'm pushing for a decade of celibacy. I've got less than 2 years until then. Unless the Lord brings me a wife, I'm going for the decade!