Annoyed

I’m annoyed today. It was the perfect day to have spent with a girlfriend, if I had one. I watched a movie, made bubble tea at home (enough to have bubble tea tmrw too 😊) and just generally lazed around. It was awesome. Can I tell you another awesome thing about today?

No noise. The girl that touched my inappropriately...yea I told her I needed time and that we shouldn’t be alone together for a while. That’s been amazing. I wouldn’t say I had a productive day thanks to 2 consecutive days off my ADD meds but there was significantly less noise in my life today and I loved it.
I kinda don’t miss her. I feel guilty about it too, but it’s true.
I did miss talking to the math teacher though. That’s also annoying. I’m generally not a person who desires the company or conversation of other people. I enjoy it but I don’t miss it. My family tells me they miss me all the time and I usually make a joke out of it because the feeling is not mutual lol. I may like talking to you but generally I’m doing something else I really want to do if I’m not around you so you’re not exactly on my mind.
She is though.
Annoyingly and also eye openingly.
She’s also in my prayers, which was the first place she showed up that made me pay attention. I pray for my wife everyday but she’s in there too. I wonder when my wife and the girl I’m praying for by name will one day be one and the same? I guess when I ask someone to marry me! Ha!

There was this interesting article today in the Times about Black boys vs white boys who are raised with the same amount of money and where they land as adults. I sent it to omg faculty pair on evaluations subcommittee because he’s probably the Black man I talk to the most and he poked holes in that argument. I can’t wait to sit down with him and hash that one out. He importantly noted that having money and being wealthy are very different. I also thought it was interesting that this issue doesn’t face black women but I think that’s because whites don’t seem to see us as a threat as obviously so they let us make it in the name of diversity while not letting Black men make it. I know this...nothing I see in the media makes me want to have a Black son. I already had less than positive thoughts about raising a boy but the media makes it sound like a lost cause.
 You want a successful kid who actually stays alive long enough to be someone?
Have a Black girl.

Friday is my big female deans activity. I’m looking forward to it. I think the lady deans will be good. I have to pick up some last minute items but it’s coming together.

My faculty seminar is postponed because my other presenter had surgery this weekend. To be honest, my initial reaction wasn’t the best since this workshop was supposed to happen in December and it’s march and it’s still not happening. Nevertheless, a new date will be scheduled and I’ll have to ask off of rotation, as if people don’t already think I’m secretly a dean and not justness a baby dean.

Anyway, I’m glad to have picked you back up blog. I missed you. See you tomorrow!

Phil