Deans and things

I had to put together the gifts for the deans tomorrow. I decided to go with shadowboxes that will double as the table centerpieces during the intermission and food portion of tomorrow.
I’m excited about this thing. I’m going with DHF black for a clothing choice because it makes me feel powerful. Channeling Deb Deb is always a thing that makes me feel invincible.
I also ended up having to use my phone to print out pics so I sprinted out some others too. I decided to print out some of the action shots from telling my mentor that I’d passed step. That was really a banner moment in my life. Her reaction was larger than life and made me feel so so so good. I love that memory so I put those on my coffee table. I’m going to get a double frame for them. I loved us. I do deeply want us back. I’m gonna keep pursuing that because it doesn’t make any sense. Stopped by her office today and she was on the phone so I’ll go back and try again tomorrow. I miss her. I miss her everyday.

I also printed out this dope shot I got of all the Black deans of Howard from behind the stage during short white coat ceremony this fall. Definitely a money shot. I love Howard for that shot. I love being able to see so much Black excellence daily. I love having my future deanship modeled for me by someone who looks like me and spends time investing in my future as her successor. Howard’s just in your bones good you know? This was definitely one of the most important decisions I ever made and I’m so glad that when I was walking down the steps after my interview, and right before I came out to my sister, that I heard God’s voice saying “this is what I have for you. Say yes.”
I’m so glad that obedience has been a part of my faith practice. This is one of the best yes moments of my life and by far the easiest to say.

There are some great pics of me and my girls that I had to have printed. I’m gonna need a giant shadow box for all the pics we are going to have. We are leaving for San Fran next week for a conference so there will be pictures galore! They are such a blessing to me. I’ve never ever had a group of friends or had a group of people claim me before. I wasn’t a popular kid to say the least but I tell you that if you keep living, things might just change😊

Printed some gangster shots of me and my sibl because we awesome in our Christmas onesies. That girl man. Today she went home to get her hair done and our hairdresser follows me on insta. I recently posted on the 3rd anniversary of coming out to my mom that coming out was this amazing thing that let me live more authentically and I posted a picture of two brides saying this is what I dream of. She said to my sister”did you see that post?” She hadn’t but she said she figured it was some gay shit (that’s my sibl!) My hairdresser went on to say I thought she was gay in high school. Glad she finally figured that out. Girl what?!?! I wasn’t even sure I was gay then. In love with my first girl friend? Yes but gay? Nah....I wasn’t convinced. So many people saw it before I did for what it was. It’s cool. I’m there now. Lol

And I actually decided to print out two of the shots of me and the math teacher. I definitely hadn’t planned to do that going into the CVS...hell I’d planned to use my thumb drive that didn’t even have those pics on it but alas the opportunity presented itself and I said well why the hell not.
My ex and I had had a whole photo shoot and I threw out the pictures just a few months ago. I like pictures. And even though she’s not mine, she could be in the future and plus...she’s pretty to look at. So, much like things I’m not quite ready for everyone to see, the pics of us are the only ones that didn’t stay in my loving room. I have this hallway that connects my room to my bathroom where I keep various items like nudes of beautiful women and I put the picture up there. There’s also one on my nightstand...not sure how long that’ll be there but it is. She’s pretty...what can I say 🤷🏾‍♀️

Anyway, I hope the dean event goes well tomorrow. I love celebrating women! We’re dope.