Rules: 250,345 Go With The Flow: 0

I knew this was an untenable position.
I knew you liked me.
I knew you had a girlfriend.
What I didn't expect was that you didn't realize you liked me and that this had the potential to get messy.
I thought you knew that. When I realized you didn't, I went ahead and led you to that conclusion.

Then you made the decision I've become accustomed to.
You picked the other girl.
I knew it was coming.
Because I'm a great girl and I'll make a phenomenal wife, but people usually pick they girl they've kissed (or done much more with) over the girl they haven't.

I'm just glad I realized what was going on well before I spent way to much money trying to convince you I was the better choice.
I'm also glad I realized what was going on before I got hurt.

You see the rules are in place for a reason. They keep my safe.
I realize its a rigid way to be. But thankfully, because many don't know how my mind compartmentalizes relationships, they don't know how I actually think about them.

Time tells me so much about a relationship. Can you really do this? Are you really in this for the long haul? Show me.

But yes, I saw this coming.
The moment she called to tell me that that girl was actually her girlfriend and that she had lied about it when I first asked....I knew this wasn't going to end well.

I knew this because its the same phone call my ex made. And unwisely I thought I could persuade her to pick me.
This time I knew better. I know that being with someone isn't something people are convinced of. They just pick.
And the only time I've ever the chosen one is academically.

Is my self esteem affected? Not really.
I'd already decided a week before, that I probably needed to fade to black after I called her and they were together running mundane errands. That was my sign that they were serious. That was my cue to quietly exit.
But then she texted me asking to talk.
So we did.
And that conversation finally led her to the conclusion that she is the one that actually isn't capable of being friends.

She ended her text message with maybe one day she'll text me and tell me that she messed up.
Yea maybe.
I won't hold my breath.
I've seen this thing play out from start to finish before.
I'll be surprised if I ever hear from her again.
This is why the rules exist.
Because people will hurt you, if you let them in too close too soon.