We were past it

When you're past the honeymoon stage

You’re more honest with each other.
Bodily functions are something to laugh about.
Sweatpants and tee shirts are a regular thing.
They know what you look like without all the makeup.
Being “laid up and watching Netflix” is the only thing you’re looking forward to after work.
You don’t go on fancy dates as often but you trade that for quality time.
You find yourself being more vulnerable and you open up more.
They become your best friend.
You will able to talk about anything.
You won’t be worried about impressing their parents, you’re just gonna love them anyway regardless of how their parents may feel.
You will have inside jokes that no one else will get.
Sex is not as often but, twice as passionate. 
Little fights will happen, but you’ll learn not to sweat the small stuff.
You’ll learn what compromise really is about.
You’ll dream about the future together. Grow together.
Be on each other’s team.
See their ugly crying face, and be the one to wipe the tears away & do something stupid to make them laugh.
Things are amazing after the honeymoon stage. However, it’s a time about giving up your walls and open up some doors you have locked a long time ago.

That's why sometimes, I miss her desperately. Because we had something special that I want back. 
We had something to build a life on. We had something my mind still tries to build a life on...I life I live only in my dreams and pray to live with the sun high above us one day. 

I dream these dreams where its a regular day in our regular life in our extraordinary marriage and then I wake up and live this life without you. And I love both...I love the life I have and the life I don't. 
God...if they could be one life wouldn't that be something?
Wouldn't that be something....