One of my regulars and my friend in real life (who reads my posts and then just walks up to me and hugs me in the middle of the hall way...love you girl!) asked me a question I wanted to explore on here.
Her question was: Do you think the girl you're in love with reads your blog?
My immediate response was no.
Of course not. Why would she?
But then I got to thinking....
I don't know if she reads it but here's what I do know.
She's in a relationship of some sort with someone else.
If she reads my blog then she knows exactly how I still feel about her, that I still pray for her, that I'm still believing God that we're going to be together and that I've got all these scriptures to back that up.
If, and that a huge if, she reads my blog then there are a few things that must be true:
1. She's still trying to decide of she believes all the things I'm saying God's told me about us
OR
2. She believes but isn't ready to start a relationship with me/is waiting to hear from God for herself even though she believes me
OR
3. She believes/has heard from God about us but thinks its too much work to be with me/she's comfortable with settling
Because honestly, if she's serious about the other girl, then she shouldn't be interested in my inner most thoughts, prayers, and desires for a future marriage with her. If she were to still be interested in reading this, that would be kinda crazy. Why would she want to know how I feel about her if she's certain she'll never reciprocate those feelings?
I'll put it this way.
I'm absolutely sure about her both in my heart and spiritually.
In 2+ years, I've never once thought she wasn't going to be my wife.
I wasn't sure how that was going to happen, but I've always believed.
If we were together, that's it.
If someone was writing about me the way I write about her, I'd have no interest in it.
I'd never read it.
I'd already have the one my soul loves.
What would be the point?
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