I asked God to show me something new last night and we went to John 3.
Here's the Word and my first impressions from last night.
Jesus answered, “I assure you and most solemnly say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit he cannot [ever] enter the kingdom of God. 6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh [the physical is merely physical], and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit. 7 Do not be surprised that I have told you, ‘You must be born again [reborn from above—spiritually transformed, renewed, sanctified].’
First Impression: "Tonight I asked God to show me something new and He took me to John the 3rd chapter to tell the story of John the Baptist...and I'm about to be baptized on Sunday! If that wasn't confirmation I don't know what it is? I live how God handles me because my mother called me to argue with me today about being Baptized and how I just need to be under watch care and I was certain I should be baptized but do you know the Lord was like "and here's a scripture sis." I love the way He loves me."
Needless to say I'm being baptized but now I have a scripture! ::cue smile:: I wasn't unsure of getting baptized but my mom has been calling me with every argument in the world about why I shouldn't: You're not going to be up there long term, med school is demanding, You volunteer at two different hospitals, You don't have free time, the Baptist church is going to benefit from all the teaching you received at the AMEZion church. ITs funny because she gave me the same conversation when I was going to a predominantly White church about how I should be at a Black church and being an example to the little Black kids. Now I'm at a Black church and that's still not good enough. I'm not chasing my mom's desires for me life, I'm chasing God's. God's saying "Go get that baptism girl!" and I'm excited about both that and being fully accepted at my church. I haven't ever had that...no one a church wide basis. I was taken out of leadership for expressing my interest in my love and now I'm getting the full measure of God's love for me through the church. I'll take it!
3:11 I assure you and most solemnly say to you, we speak only of what we [absolutely] know and testify about what we have [actually] seen [as eyewitnesses]; and [still] you [reject our evidence and] do not accept our testimony.
3:21 But whoever practices truth [and does what is right—morally, ethically, spiritually] comes to the Light, so that his works may be plainly shown to be what they are—accomplished in God [divinely prompted, done with God’s help, in dependence on Him].
First Impression: "The other things He talked about is the fact that we speak only what we know and we testify to what we know and the fact that that is what I've been saying forever. I only speak of the things that God tells me and in this chapter it talks about that and it talks about how people can reject the testimony and refuse the evidence but that doesn't make it not present. I also love that He talks about how he who practices truth comes out into the light and his work they clearly show because that is something I've been endeavoring to do...to come out in the light and say this is what I believe and this is why."
So another thing God does is talk to me about multiple things at the same time. I was good by the end of 7. That was the only something new I thought I was going to see. And a young thug was grateful but since He sent me to chapter 3, I read the chapter.
Shortly there after Jesus is talking to Nicodemus who says "How can these things be possible?" Jesus's response is verse 11. That's what I've been writing on this blog. When I write about my future marriage and the girl I'm in love with, that's all God. The Record... that's my evidence. Its what I absolutely know from Him. How crazy would it be to lie on Jesus? Bro...absolutely not. I go to Him repeatedly and ask Him if He's still sure and He always is with a fresh scripture for my soul. How much "easier" would my life be if I didn't believe a girl I haven't seen in 2 years was going to be my wife? But oh to press towards the mark of the high calling...that's what I want even when I feel like I'm drowning. And I'm painfully honest about that too. The drowning...its brutal but He brings me back to the surface every time.
Also...what He does in the 21st verse?
Boss.
I love showing my work. I love this blog because its my work. Its the evidence of why relationship with Him, the wrestling with my faith that I do, God's footprints in my life. I love the boldness of my faith, that I'm willing to say "Hey I'm believing God for this thing that a lot of people think is impossible." I endeavor to tell the truth even when its hard and do the right thing when its not easy. One day, when she's my wife, I'll show her all of this and how I believed for us.
I'll always know that God did this thing for us.
God created my marriage.
I will remain confident in this I will see the goodness of the Lord.
I will wait on You.
I will wait on You.
I will trust in You.
I will trust in You.
These lyrics were playing while I was writing.
For God did not send the Son into the world to judge and condemn the world [that is, to initiate the final judgment of the world], but that the world might be saved through Him. 18 Whoever believes and has decided to trust in Him [as personal Savior and Lord] is not judged [for this one, there is no judgment, no rejection, no condemnation];
Also this, for each and every person that doesn't think my homosexuality is compatible with my faith. Yea....this!
John replied
A man can receive nothing [he can claim nothing at all] unless it has been granted to him from heaven [for there is no other source than the sovereign will of God] in verse 27.
I was struck by this because one of the fears I've been expressing both to my real life friends and God is that I'm worried that someone else will propose to my wife. Though I'm doing all that I can to work towards being financially ready and spiritually ready, its a real concern. He's told me so many ways that she's His will for me but I'm human. Even though I don't want to I doubt. Plus, I don't talk to her about anything serious. I don't know what's going on in her life. I have no idea where her head is. I've found myself singing "what God has for me, it is for me" lately to calm my own nerves but I love that He sent me this verse. In light of my worry, He comforts me. He is the great comforter.
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