Conflict: Me or You?

For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.
So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me.22 For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23 but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. 
Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
Romans 7:19,21-23,25

I heard a snippet of a sermon that basically said we are at conflict with ourselves. Theres this holy thing in us from God and then there's the earthen vessel that we are in that is prone to sin. So the conflict Christians often experience is within themselves. I'm not in a battle with anyone else but a battle between the human me and the God in me. 

Pastor highlighted that this conflict is one of the main reasons that being a Christian can be difficult. We've got two sets of instructions: Do what God wants us to do and what we want to do.

Lord,

Help me to continue to do that which you would have me to do. Even when its hard, I know that when I know Your will and choose to be outside of it, that that's the definition of insanity. Its hard a lot God but help me to cling to You in my despair. I know that you are the author of peace and the architect of all that is good in my life. Even when I don't understand what You're doing, help me to trust You. Though I fail, see my desire to be more like You. It would be so easy to let these girls, who I know aren't Your will, get close to me. It would be easy to use them to assuage my loneliness, but I want to do what You want me to do. I want what You have for me. Help me not to be tempted to use people as that doesn't line up with everything You've taught me over the last few years. Help me to hold fast to You, even though I get angry and frustrated that my wife isn't by my side.  Even though I'm sad that I can't talk to her. I know You're doing things in her life to prepare her for our life together just as You're doing in mine. My patience is thin Jesus. I'm so tired of waiting. Though I haven't asked, I do wonder if You've told her I'm the one yet... that all these things I say are from You.  I wonder. I wonder if she knows and she doesn't care because what she wants to do and what You want her to do aren't the same. I hope she trusts You enough to let You win that battle. I want so much for her and for us. I want her to have her own experience where she knows this is Your plan for us. Help me be the person you want me to be. 

Amen.